Yearly!

I say this just about the same time every year. I know I do it, because I can see where I did it last year. Getting stuck in a loop is sort of scary, and it makes me really question the routine. So, let's just skip the preamble and get to it.

I'm gonna change my situation, and soon. The work's good. Score there, you know. Keep that. Friends ain't bad, but that scene is changing rapidly, too. Home situation will probably change in a major way. Gonna be heading out into the land of 'doing it on my own' part deux, on account of I've never seen a roomie who didn't make me look like the most stable man in the world by comparison (Job! Car! Social Life!). So rather than split rent with the unreliability of existence, I might end up doing it my own self.

The second you think about the fact that even if you lost everything, you could still start over, well, it doesn't seem so bad.

Here's the preamble in case any of you folks missed it above.

We just took in a fella who just got out of prison (statuatory!). He was nice enough before he went in, and he's nice enough now. Unfortunately, he wants a year to get back on his feet with me and my roomie. My roomie thinks that means I should just sidle on out in my own time.

I haven't said as such, but that pisses me right off. I been around a couple years, been supportive, and not asked for just about anything in return. An old friend turned convict gets on the couch, and I who have a track record of responsibility is asked to walk.

I can read the writing on the wall on this one. Once I move out, roomie and I will have 0 need to ever talk to each other again, and that's probably how it's going to go. Except for the point at which she'll want me to watch her little girl, which I will avoid like "Bats 2: Lou Diamond Phillips Boogaloo". I was nice and did it to help out while I lived there. Heck with that.

It seems like a pretty cliche lesson, but being a nice guy and getting walked blahblahblah. Nice guys finish last, eh?

Maybe that's the problem, at heart. I'm being too nice. Maybe it's time to be a damn jerk about something or other. Pick my battles on this one though.

So, here's where I'm going to encourage participation from the audience. What should I be a jerk about?

1) Wait a couple months and be a jerk about moving out
2) Be a jerk to somebody who checks in with me for nostalgia's sake

I eagerly await your votes!